It has been a terrible week and I feel like I'm on the edge of losing it completely.
The first major thing was the funeral which I thought I'd cope with but not so much, it bought back memories I buried long ago and it was painful to be in that room again saying goodbye to someone.
Then the next day I was told that despite the months of assurances and preparing - I didn't get the job. As it turns out despite them keeping it open just a short while they had a number of very experienced people apply and they simply couldn't pick me over them, i'm so gutted for once in my life I felt confident, confident I could do the job and confident I'd be damn good at it. I still really haven't got over it to be honest and now the thought of being stuck in my department with people that don't like me actually brings me to tears.
oh and I gained a 1lb this week.
I played the lottery but with my luck this week I think I wasted my money.
Whats for you won't pass you. And we all have weeks where we go up in weight, it will give you a push for next week.
ReplyDeleteAww nicola its awful when you want something and your lead to believe its yours and then they go give it to someone else. cruel buggers. Seems like youve had a pretty shitty week and I think given what you have been going through, a 1 lb gain seems reasonable just for the stress alone. Im a great believer in things often work out for the best and I would hold on to the hope that something better work wise is waiting just around the corner. Believe it, repeat it till you believe it and it will happen. :-) hope your week ahead is more settled.
ReplyDeletethank you for your lovely comments xxx
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