'The drugs don't work' - My body and mind is that best up even sleeping tablets are able to quiet my brain down enough to sleep however they do just enough to have made be a bit zombieish today, keep phasing out.
I've been out twice today this morning just for a drive and the second to see cousin shrink as with work hours I've not seen her in weeks. I have to try and get out every day because last time I had a breakdown I became a recluse and didn't leave me house for a loooooooooooooooooog time, I don't want that to happen again. I am getting a bit panicy when Mr Shrink isn't around :(
Could set a new record for comfort eating, cream cakes and bread are the main ones at the moment, I always feel bad afterwards though, don't no why I do it to myself. Same as the emails really, I no I shouldn't check them but I have been, just the subjects really but everytime I do I just get this sense of dread and panic, Mr shrink keeps threatening to take my computer away. :(
On the good news front my course material should arrive next week, less then a month before they start but I am worried I'm taking too much on by studying 2,
I'll stop rabbiting now, thank you for all the messages xx
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