Trying

Day two ended with me still on plan which is a pretty big thing with my recent history or diets and I did try some new superfree things not very successfully but at least I tried. So here is my first slimming world meal (that wasn't pasta)

  That is a warburtons mini square wrap pizza and a ham salad. I ate most of the salad but couldn't manage it all, it had raw sweetpeas in which I couldn't eat. I also tried
cherrys
pineapple
melon
strawberrys
blueberrys
kiwi
the only thing that I managed to eat were the cherrys, I liked the taste of the pineapple but I couldn't manage the texture so might revisit that later.

Saturdays Food

Banana x2
Apple x2
Grapes
Ham salad
Salad cream - 2 syns
Pizza - 4 syns and HexB (its not actually a healthy extra but i'm counting it as one)
Cherrys
Gammon
Eggs
wedges
beans
Ketchup - 1 syn

I also made rice pudding in my slow cooker but I had no sweetner so put sugar in it so need to work out the syns for it before I munch on it.

Other then that the weekend has been fairly crappy with Mr Shrink at work and nothing but this ubber cute doggy to keep me company.

New Beginnings on Old Paths

I have done most diets a few times over but never really stuck to any one thing for a prolonged period of time. I've rejoined my local slimming world so many times that now the consultant doesn't even bother giving me the new members talk. So deciding to rejoin for the bazillionth was a bit of a tug of war, even with Mr Shrink coming for moral support. To make it slightly easier we went to a new group with a new consultant with people I'd never met and I'm glad I did, there are more men including on the social team, the consultant was lovely and I'm 11lbs lighter than when I last joined so that is a bonus.

I started today but Mr Shrink is starting tomorrow as he is out for the night and we really didn't have much in the house until tomorrow when the Asda man delivers my goodies. I have ordered a lot of fruit and veg and I'm going to do my very best to eat all of it. Most of it is things I can hide in meals but some I will attempt to eat on its own, will be interesting.

Fridays Food

Banana x2
Apple x2
Mugshot
Pasta
Cheese x HexA
Activia Intensely Creamy, Peaches & Cream 2.5 syns

I haven't eaten much today but I don't feel very hungry, I've been drinking more today so maybe that's helped. I've also managed to have no full fat coke which is a bleeding miracle for me.

Long may it last

Asking to be selfish instead of just being selfish.

Bit of a back story Mr Shrink is also keen to lose a bit of weight, he is a fussy eater like me although he's tried 2 diets slimming world for about a day and calorie counting, where he did lose a stone but didn't eat much because he drinks a lot of full fat coke and eats nothing but freezer stuff and hates fresh fruit and veg. I have major food issues that basically involve me being physically sick if I attempt to eat something like veg or soup but I no if I have any hope of dieting successfully I need to get over this.

Yesterday I asked something of Mr Shrink that was completely selfish and it got me thinking because I have always considered myself a pretty unselfish person daily I go out of my way to put other peoples needs and wants before my own with the exception of my husband.
I asked him to join slimming world and do it properly knowing that he hated it the first time, I told him I needed him to get over his food issues to help me get over mine and I told him that If he didn't then I wouldn't. I can't do it on my own I can't sit there and watch while he eats sweets and crisps and crappy food while I'm desperately trying to cling onto one plan or another. We both need to lose weight and this is the most sensible way of doing it. Thankfully I am married to a wonderful man who agreed without much grumbling and even agreed that it will be good for both of us, he's a bit embarrassed about going to group but that's mainly because he thinks there are no men but the one down the road has a fair few.

Goodies

I'm doing my bit to keep Amazon in business this month by purchasing a few non essentials

The most exciting being this

I love animal crossing and when I found out they were doing another one, well I was getting it. Yes people I am a 28 year old women who loves a kids game enough to pre order it and make sure it arrived on the day of release. Bit of a change from Black ops 2.

Obviously with the above purchased I needed something to play it on

a Nintendo 3DS XL. I should point out that I had been wanting one of these before the new leaf was announced, that just kind of sealed the deal, I missed my old nintendo DS. I was a bit sceptical about the 3D function as I have poor vision and 3D doesn't work so well if your vision isn't perfect. But actually its quite good and there is a function where you can turn the 3D off which is what I do because I start seeing double if I use the 3D for too long. The size is amazing and the camera and pedometer function are really useful. To be honest I haven't tried all the bits on it yet because I've been preocciped with Rosa (my town in animal crossing)

Obviously its pink, like there is any other choice when it comes to me :) and lastly and in the same theme (diet and color)

A Brita fill and go, another item I've been umming and arring about for months, seeing as it was on sale and it came with filters I thought it would be a good time. It feels bigger then I thought it would, although its 600ml I think because its not squeezy it feels bigger. The spring loaded lid feels like it won't last long but maybe that is just my pessimistic nature breaking through. I am very fussy with water (I no shocking right) I don't like straight from the tap water, we have the hardest water in the country, but I used it with this and it was fine. The filters need to be changed every 20ltrs filtered which isn't an awful lot considering you're supposed to be drinking 2ltrs or more a day and at almost £10 for 8 filters it could be quite an expensive habit but I suppose it is cheaper and eco-friendly then bottled water.

So overall I'm quite pleased with my goodies, the bank balance not so much :)

Same old, Brand new me.

How do you go about losing half of yourself, more than half actually, I need to lose 14 stone that's an over weight person!! That is a lot of pressure on a girl who can't stay more than a week on a plan and have basically been on one diet or another since she was 13.

So how did I get here?? From an early age I used food as comfort and became a very fussy eater and quickly fell into the vicious cycle of diet for a few weeks, binge, give up, leave it for a few weeks, start again. Now I can honestly say I don't have a life, I exist and it is not a pleasant existence.