There is nothing like moving home to stress you out and shatter all illusions you and your family had about you. Moving house is never the easiest thing in the world but when you can't actually do anything and you should be able to well that's a whole other level. I am suprised just how little I could do, I struggle walking from one end of the house to the bathroom at the other and sadly I do not live in a massive mansion, just a run of the mill terraced house. The in laws were around for the move (they live a few doors down) and having spent a few days with them in and around my house they are obviously now very aware of just how little I can do now. Last night I had a bit of a emotional breakdown after I couldn't get up of the sofa, I don't want to be like this anymore but I actually don't know what I have to do. I always say I have tried every diet under the sun but honestly have I actually given every single one of them my all? No, I've have with slimming world and Cambridge but not more then a few weeks and I think when I was about 16 my mum made me join weight watchers which I did for a while but I don't think I've ever lost more than 2 stone on a diet and obviously from the state I'm in I've never kept it off.
My problem and I guess this is somewhat of a confession, when I'm not 'dieting' all we have is takeaways and ready meals, we don't cook from scratch, we don't plan, everything we eat is processed. I want to learn how to make my own food, not necessarily all healthy but fresh. I want to bake my own bread and cakes, maybe eating my own cookies will be more of a comfort then eating a packet of mass produced crap. Maybe this plan with a few days a week fasting is the way for me, I'm not sure I'll lose much weight but hopefully I won't gain more.
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