because I have well and truely lost it!
batch cooking wasn't very successful - actually the weetabix cake was devine but I ate the whole thing in a day. I made quiche with a cous cous base which was weird, Lasagne with blended mac cheese as sauce which was vile and a pasta bake that was ruined because I didn't cook the pasta first.
I didn't make it to weigh in, after spending the morning cooking by the afternoon I felt poorly again so never made it out the house. I'm not sleeping again and so far this week at work I've done about 14 hours yesterday and another 13 hours today with a grand total of 20 minutes away from my computer all day. I've done about 25 hours overtime in a week so far and I've got another week or 2 of this yet. I'm running on diet coke and various sugary crap that is floating around the office, not a great combo and I really wish I liked coffee more at times like these, would make the days easier.
I probably shouldn't confess this but I just want to jack it in (not that i'm particularly doing it at the mo) I've tried to increase my superfree but in reality all that's happening is i'm going off the stuff I can eat, so i'm eating less than ever. I'm just really sick of feeling like a failure.
Right I'm going for a shower and then to bed to try and get a little sleep, I'm slightly optimistic that I feel so exhausted I could sleep all night but only time will tell.
Oh I've rediscovered my twitter account so If anyone gets a random tweet from x_Nicki_x that would be me :D
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